Bubbleshake

SeptEmbeR 20, 2002 @ 6 o’clock in the morning – Here came CARNAGE13. The first time I heard his voice, I felt something that I can’t explain, something that i haven’t felt before; but i just ignored it.

DeCemBer 2002, Friday the 13^th – We talked about things out of this world. He usually calls me in the middle of the night & we talked until the cock crows in the morning. We talked about our pasts and our secrets. I wonder how and why I revealed to him my secret that I’ve been hiding for how many years, a secret that I thought no one should ever know. Why is he the first person to know it? Then, I felt something different. As if he’s one of the reasons why I exist in this world. Do I have a mission for him? Who is he?  I tried to enter his world, a world so different with mine. Then, I was afraid of meeting him. I was afraid and clueless of what I feel for him. I was afraid to try…I tried to hold back but it got worst.

JulY 4, 2003 @ about 6 in the morning – My heart overcame my mind for the very first time in my whole life. It’s my first time to say “I LOVE YOU too!” to a guy. I wasn’t able to hide what I felt. I know he already knew it before i did. As if I was going to explode, if I didn’t bring it out. It’s weird to fall in love with a person you haven’t met yet. Someone you only first met thru phone. So this is what it feels to fall in love, I said to myself.

AuGusT 2, 2003 - We met at PNR,

Baguio

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He’s my first love & I was blinded by love, believing he was the one for me.

It was a long distance relationship & I was so faithful to him. There were times that I can’t help but doubt & give up the relationship, but I just can’t, and still continued to give him my trust…I only want myself just for him. I thought he’s doing the same for me. But later, I found out there’s something missing; there’s something wrong in the relationship.

DecEmBeR 28, 2006 – Here came a text message from another girl. I still continued to trust him and waited for him to tell me what I should know; but I waited for nothing.

MaY 1, 2007 – The other girl came out from the open. She told me everything I should know..things I was expecting him to be the one to tell me. She told me how my ex boyfriend tricked and fooled me. He cheated on me and i was deeply hurt. Now everything has been shattered. It was so painful but I have to accept the truth. I didn’t want my ex boyfriend or the other girl to be blamed; instead, I secretly blamed myself..I know how the other girl feels & so with my ex. I didn’t want any one of us to be hurt; but we were hurt unintentionally..I don’t want the wounds to go deeper anymore. I just want to forgive them and just go on alone in my life.

May 7, 2007 – “Reality Hurts!” but I have to accept it. Now, I want my mind to overcome what I still feel for him after all that happened.

Now the question is, “TO

HOLD

There comes a time when life tells us this chapter has ended

and it’s time to move on to something else.

But how can you say goodbye to someone you love?

Still we need to let go to allow ourselves to grow up,

to mature, to become better persons from experiences.

Now, iam happy and satisfied being SINGLE.

I still remember this quote, “In love we need to practice only this: LETTING EACH OTHER GO. For holding on comes easily; we don’t need to learn it.” =)

A mother is special.
She’s as soft and graceful as a butterfly,
yet as strong and courageous
as a grizzly bear.
Her heart is large enough to hold
everyone’s pain and joy.
Her hands are always gentle and soothing.
Her arms are always warm and tender.
She works hard to make a
home feel like home,
and she strives to make life pleasant
and comfortable for those she loves.
She never fails to go that extra mile to
make the holidays happy and memorable.
Her job is the most difficult and
demanding ever known to any human being,
yet she’s fully dedicated to the task.
She’s always there for her family,
guiding them and keeping them safe from harm.
She owns a magical way to raise
spirits and make everything feel better.
And her sympathy, unselfishness
and forgiveness are unending.
All that anyone is or could ever hope to be
can be attributed to a mother.
She instills the teachings
that will last a lifetime.
She sows the seeds of virtue and morality,
and in the process, she opens up love
and vast horizons.
She’s always watching and hoping that
her children’s goals will have meaning.
She always listens and tries to understand
even when it’s difficult to do so.
She’s a true friend in every sense of the word.
She’s noble and sublime,
and holds all the beauty of a golden day,
yet even during the storms,
she always shines bright like an evening star.
Her name should be honored well,
for she’s the closest thing to God on earth..

" GOD could not be everywhere therefore he made MOTHERS…=) "

You said that you loved me,
That I was the one for you.

You promised to stay forever,
Not a single word was true.

I can’t believe you lied to me,
That you thought using me was cool…

“I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we’re really not that different, me and you.”

For the negative things we have to say to ourselves, God has positive answers:

You say: "It’s impossible."

God says: All things are possible.(Luke 18:27)

You say:"I’m tired."

God says: i will give you rest.(Matt. 11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me."

God says: I love you.(John 3:16 & John 13:34)

You say:"I can’t go on."

God says:My grace is sufficient.(2 Cor. 12:9)

You say:I can’t figure things out.

God says:I will direct your steps.(Prov. 3:5-6)

You say:"I can’t do it."

God says:You can do all things. (Phil. 4:13)

You say:I am not able.

God says:I am able.(2Cor. 9:8)

You say:It’s not worth it.

God says:It will be worth it.(Rom. 8:28)

You say:I can’t forgive myself.

God says:I FORGIVE YOU. (1 John 1:9)

You say:"I can’t manage."

God says:I will supply all your needs. (Phil 4:19)

You say:"I am afraid."

God says:I have not given you the spirit of fear. (2 Tim 1:7)

You say:"I am always worried frustrated."

God says:Cast all you cares on ME. (1 Peter 1:7)

You say:"I don’t have enough faith."

God says:I’ve given everyone a measure of faith. (Rom. 12:3)

You say:"I’m not smart enough."

God says:I give you wisdom.(1 Cor 1:30)

You say:"I feel all alone."

God says:I will never leave you or forsake you. (Heb 13:15)

Guys please check this out…

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/